Non-Zero-Sum attraction

In light of my recent face-to-face with green-eyes, I began thinking to myself about my core beliefs and the types of men I've been manifesting.

I had an "aha" moment when I realized that I've been operating under the tacit assumption that for every good thing, quality or person I received, I had to somehow make a payment to the universe by also accepting something bad or undesirable. I had to do something in order to balance the scales myself so that I could accept the gift coming my way, that for every good I must also be dealt a bad.

That's a zero-sum game; there is no net gain. All wins and losses must balance out.

That's been lurking un-said, un-voiced in my subconscious all these years, yet always a potent driving principle.

Life is, rather, non-zero-sum. Everything benefits from everything else. People grow, sun shines freely on the earth with no thought of "repayment" or "reimbursement of insolation". Everything is constantly unfolding, always growing, ever becoming increasingly complex and rich, new and more.

So, therefore, must I be as well.

I had this vision of myself as a light bulb. A light bulb freely accepts power as its input, its gift, so that it can do what it was made to do: illuminate and give off heat. When power is applied, the light lights up. It doesn't think, "oh, I have to give back some of this power". No. It just does what it was made to do without any fuss, and gratefully accepting the gift of power as its due.

OK, so I'm anthropomorphizing a little, but you get the idea.

I don't have to balance the scales! I don't have to "do a good turn" or "accept the good with the bad" when something good comes my way; merely doing what I do and being who I am is the only payback that the universe is wanting :-) Me trying to balance the scales myself gets in the way of the positive flow of good, you know?

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